I’m all over the place right now. We are pregnant. I cried for the baby we lose and because I don’t feel joy, I’m terrified. I’m so scared to do or say anything, What if It happens again. I sat and wondered if I should even tell my husband, in my mind spare everyone the pain. Of course I told him. Even told the boys. The joy in their faces made me smile and feel a little joy. I decided I wouldn’t fear and trust everything would be ok. The boys had a million question and couldn’t stop talking about where baby would sleep and sit in the car. I’m praying for this baby.